A bitch named Life...

Just when you think you're about to take a step forward, this bitch named Life steps up and knocks your ass back 100 yards. Today, I found out how true those words are. I received some news that seriously pissed me off. I'm talking about needing-to-break-something pissed. I felt like giving up, as if all the trying and everything that I've worked for was done for nothing. For a moment, I felt like God wasn't there for me. I know, I know...it was foolish of me to think that. I still have my faith and realized that I have to keep going. It's nobody but Satan that's trying to keep me down. Well, guess what? I just got back up again, dusted off my ass and I'm pushing back. I got a really good talk of encouragement that gave me motivation to keep trying. It's hard to do sometimes but I realize that life is about the fight to survive and to get where I want to be. It's good to know I have a great group of people in my life (y'all know who y'all are). After some prayer time, I decided to listen to iTunes and the first song that plays:



Whitney Houston.::I Didn't Know My Own Strength::.

The Climb

Darkness is all I can see

My eyes are wide open

But there’s no light to guide me

Lost, confused…where am I?

How did I get here?

Keep walking, a little voice I hear

Sounds from all directions

I keep moving, paranoia growing

Fear in my eyes, my hands reach out

Nothing but air is what I grab

Rushes of wind blows against me

Help, I cried out

Not a body in presence

Shivers, tears, my legs are giving up

I fall down to the ground

Paralyzed with fear

Unable to move, I cry

I surrender…

Get up, that little voice speaks again

So commanding

Demanding to keep going

Exhausted and weak

Don’t give up now

“I picked myself back up”

A song begins in my head

I push myself up to my feet

My legs still tired

Suddenly, a light appears

My feet are heavy like bricks

Dragging, desperate to reach the glow

So determined, I had to get there

I couldn’t struggle any longer

No more of this darkest hour

My faith giving me all the fuel I need

To reach the light that leads me from this dark

Pushing myself with such heart and hope

So much I never thought I’d find within me

You’re almost there, that angelic voice

I made it…I conquered

I’ve reached the mountain’s peak

Stronger and wiser I come out on top

Grateful I am for Him not giving up on me

This bitch named Life dealt me some bad cards

I wondered how much more can I take

But I’ve learned how to play smart

I refuse to lose…I will not break

By the way, my best friend bought me a 6 pack of Budweiser beer. You know, the ones in the bottle? Unopened, I took them outside and threw each one of them against a tree. I felt so much better, lol.