Stuck between a rock and a hard place...

So y’all know I’m from Houston. I’ve been here all my life, since I was born. For nearly the past 17 months, I haven’t had a job since being laid off. While searching, I remained focused on school full time. Hundreds of applications, and only 4 or 5 interviews later, I’m still not working. Well, thanks to a relative in ATL, I got a pretty good offer. So, it looks like I could be moving to Atlanta soon. Great, right? Well, not really. They want me to start ASAP but the only problem is I have a court appointment in 3 weeks that I can’t back out of. I really am looking forward to moving and it would be a nice change of scenery. However, it might not happen if I can’t get around this damn court thing.

L Boogie speaks!

Lauryn Hill is back — sort of.

Celebrated for her work with the Fugees and her classic solo album The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill, the Grammy-winning hip-hop/R&B artist has barely been seen or heard since 1999. (Despite universal accolades, she only released one album after 1998’s Miseducation: 2002’s MTV Unplugged.) Some wondered whether the erratic artist — who demands to be addressed as “Ms. Hill” — had a nervous breakdown.

But Hill, now 35, finally explained her mysterious absence to National Public Radio’s Zoe Chace, who scored a interview with the artist following a rare performance in Santa Rosa, Calif.

Why did she stop recording? “There were a number of different reasons,” she explains.

“But partly, the support system that I needed was not necessarily in place. There were things about myself, personal-growth things, that I had to go through in order to feel like it was worth it.”

The platinum-selling star also takes aim at the music industry, suggesting it didn’t nurture her with enough care or patience: “Oftentimes,” Hill says, “the machine can overlook the need to take care of the people who produce the sounds that have a lot to do with the health and well-being of society…And it’s important that people be given the time that they need to go through, to grow, so that the consciousness level of the general public is properly affected.”

Not that Hill hasn’t kept herself busy the past 11 years.

“I don’t know if you know this, but I have five children,” she tells NPR. Her children’s dad is Hill’s longtime love Rohan Marley, son of the late reggae legend Bob Marley. 

“The youngest is 2 now, so she’s old enough that I can leave her for a period of time and know she’s going to be okay.”

“I think it’s just time,” to start performing again, she adds.

“I’m starting to get excited again. Believe it or not, I think what people are attracted to about me, if anything, is my passion. People got exposed to my passion through music and song first…And I think that can be infectious.”

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Chris Brown's Michael Jackson Tribute

The best moment of the night. As you recall, BET refused to let Breezy perform in that mess of a tribute for the late great legend Michael Jackson. In a way, I'm kind of glad they did only because that show was a fuckin' mess. However, they redeemed themselves by allowing him to perform this year and Breezy's tribute alone single-handedly annihilated every MJ tribute done. When it came time for him to perform "Man in the Mirror", Chris could barely sing at all, breaking into tears, mourning the loss of his idol.

Now, of course, the haters decided to come out of the woodworks. I like to call them sinners casting the first stone, knowing damn well they shouldn't. Publicity stunt, he's an actor, still a womanbeater, "where were the tears when he beat Rihanna's ass?" All this ridiculous shit being said. Seriously? Come the fuck on! Nobody knows shit about his life and they don't understand what Michael meant to him. Chris was heavily influenced by MJ and idolized him since he was 3 frickin' years old. His whole career he owes to MJ. Chris was in his moment. He lost it. That moment, it suddenly hit him that his idol is now gone. Tell me those moments don't happen to you when you went to a funeral for somebody you loved. Yeah, I thought so.

Insecurity? Maybe...

I never think I’m “cute”, “fooiiiiiiiine” or “sexy”. Not even “attractive”. My friends all think I’m crazy because I actually believe I’m unattractive. Sometimes I go around saying I’m ugly, lol. But seriously, when I look in a mirror, I don’t see the cuteness or the sexy. I see a normal average joe that would get no attention…and I’m perfectly fine with that. There’s nothing wrong with being conceited; it’s just that being that way has never been for me. Some people are conceited even when they shouldn’t be. I know, that’s mean but it’s the truth. Anyway, whenever people tell me how good I look, I lowkey blush and like it even if I don’t agree. That’s just how it is.

What. The. Fuck.

I have an attitude problem...

I’ve always admitted that from the get-go. I have a short temper and when I lose it, I fuckin’ lose it. Some people are quick to learn that and stay on my good side but there are still some that cannot understand how I operate. It's like they need a fuckin' manuel in English, Espanol and Francios. They keep going and repeatedly pushing all my buttons then wonder why I’ve gone crazy. Stupid, isn’t it? When I give my answer to your questions the first time around, I’m not changing it…that’s it. Keep asking, by the third time, you’ll be looking at me like I’m a completely different species. It’s THAT easy to piss me off. Everybody have known me long enough to know this. But, there’s always that one or two that seems to be slow to comprehend then their left wondering or hurt.

Dear Anonymous...

I received an email notification of a comment on my post for "Homophobia":

Wonders will society ever except us for who we really are. Signed, the boy who was beaten because he wanted to play with dolls and dicks, instead of guns and tricks.

I wish you hadn't deleted your comment but I'm sure you did it for anonymity. I applaud you for writing that; it must have been scary and brave for you.

It is ridiculous the suffering people have to go through just to be who they really are.

**Commenter's name kept secret for anonymity** 

To Infinity and Beyond...

This movie brought back a lot of memories. Lot’s of laughs, some sadness, good feelings. This movie seems to complete the story. This should definitely be seen. It’s worth it. If you’re a 90’s kid, you’ll appreciate the closure.

Two thumbs up!!

Homophobia

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the boy who never finished high school, because I got called a fag everyday

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the one working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don’t believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am a warrior for my country serving proud, but can’t be my true self because gays aren’t allowed in the military.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

I am the person ashamed to tell my own friends I’m a lesbian, because they constantly make fun of them.

I am the person who isn’t sure what she is. I am the who is rejected by her “best friends” because of a less-than-conventional crush.

I am the boy tied to a fence, beaten to a bloody pulp and left to die because two straight men wanted to “teach me a lesson.”

This is the boy, Matthew Shepard. On October 7, 1998 Aaron McKinney and Russell Henderson lead him to a remote area east of Laramie where they demonstrated unimaginable acts of brutality . Matthew was tied to a split-rail fence where he was beaten and left to die in the cold of the night. Almost 18 hours later he was found by a cyclist who initially mistook him for a scarecrow. Matthew died on October 12 at 12:53 am at a hospital in Fort Collins, Colorado. Murdered because he was gay.

Homosexuality & Religion

I saw this video earlier as someone tweeted it and the title alone caught my attention. I was half expecting some "religious zealot" to start speaking on how homosexuality was "wrong" and that God "hates" gay people, and blah blah blah. This video is amazing and speaks the same views I have. It's sad that these so-called CHRISTIANS only single out homosexuality from the Bible. The same Bible, as this guy said and I've been saying for years, that was used to justify slavery, racial discrimination and etc. The same Bible that contains only SIX admonishments to homosexuality but 362 admonishments to heterosexuality. What about tattoos, polygamy, adultery, divorcing and remarrying, promiscuity, premarital sex, rape, body piercing...see where I'm going with this? Don't even get me started on "Sodomy" when it has absolutely NOTHING to do with homosexuality. I wish these "Christians" would stop speaking and spreading what they're "taught" and actually pick up the Bible and really read it for themselves. The second testament is about "God is love" but these people who claim to walk with God are full of hate.

(Kinda) Hilariously (Mostly) Ridiculous...

*blank stare*

Yes...they're dudes.

Ladies...y'all better step it up.

Black Women are mad...again!

So, earlier I was sitting here watching Miss Jia and Slim Thug go back and forth on…Twitter. (I'm on Twitter break but took a lil peak)

I'm guessing she mad.

You see, Slim authored a blog entry (yep, you read that right) for Vibe Online on the subject of black women and there high standards. Basically, he touched on how they have too high/unrealistic standards when looking for love among black men, their anger and bitterness, and blaming black men for their relationship issues. He also touched on the subject of interracial dating and white women, and how black men AND black women need to step their game up.

So Miss Jia naturally, like most black women, got MAD and started her post on the issue with the statement: I am so sick of everybody in the world trying to psychoanalyze Black women and why we’re single.
Um, y'all been doing it to yourselves AND to black men. For YEARS!! And was there NOT interviews and specials on the relationship issues and black men featuring BLACK WOMEN aired 20/20, Nightline, MSNBC etc.?


What Miss Jia got from reading his blog: Black women ain’t sh-t. 
Talking about REACHIN'! Hell-fuckin-lo!!!!! I could have sworn I've heard, read and saw black women saying practically everyday that same exact thing about us black men.


I'm trying to understand why is it okay for black women to diss, generalize and psychoanalyze all black men (in their words "black men ain't shit") but it's a problem if black men do the same about black women? I mean, they get MAD. Kinda stupid, isn't it? 


Now let me be honest, it does go BOTH ways but 98 percent of the time its the women. Let a dude say ONE thing, women will practically jump him. They get pretty hostile and angry if/when the situation is reversed, like it's okay for them to do it but not okay for black men to do it.


But I 've come to realize that most black women, and this isn't a generalization, are negative. All they speak is negativity but they damn sure don't like it when it's directed at them.


Lemme say this to both black women AND men: STOP DOWNING AND DISSING YOUR OWN PEOPLE! If you don't like being generalized negatively, don't do the same to anyone else. I swear black people are the most negative group on this planet. 
  

Butch Queen. Smmfh.

Apparently, Tahj Mowry “came out the closet” tonight via Twitter. Because he says things like “YESSSSSS” and “WERK”, and he likes Lady Gaga and Twilight.

So naturally, the gays are congratulating him on “coming out”. I mean, he does seem a lil suspect but still. Now he's stuck trying to fight off the gays welcoming him to the team.

Maybe he's in denial, maybe not. But DAMMIT gays...every sexy man you see is not gay, so stop trying to make them that way!!!

Who dat is?

Y'all know I loves me some Chris Breezy but he recently did a photoshoot with this girl named Jasmine...

Shawty, she bad...she cute..she sexy too.

To quote Breezy's "Bad" from the In My Zone mixtape.

Difference of Opinion

It annoys me when people try to force their OPINIONS down other people's throats, as if it's superior.

It’s a fuckin’ OPINION! 

It doesn’t make you right or wrong. Don’t go around passing it off as if it’s a FACT because it’s NOT. The most common topic that these people do this is when it comes to discussing religion. Whenever it gets to that point, you lose all validity and credibility to me. That’s when I’ll tell you to pick up a dictionary for the meaning of “fact” and “opinion”. Maybe you’ll learn something.