Scared of Being Lonely...

This keeps happening

It’s like a cycle

Keeps going round and round

Leading me back where I started

I meet someone

We’ll hang out a few times

Get to know him

I’ll like him…then start falling for him

But then comes the bomb

What I once thought just isn’t

Everything he says is just a flirt

Nothing was real

So I give up on ever finding love

Sometimes I don’t believe in it

My walls are put up

Until someone else comes my way

I get nervous

I get those feelings again

But this time I refuse

I refuse to fall again

This time I like him

But I’m only leaving it as that

Those walls I built I won’t take down

My pride, it’s protecting me

From hurt

From heartbreak

From tears

From this thing we call Love

Finally

This could be my chance

My heart is saying go for it

My mind says “Don’t even”

Sure, I’m scared of being lonely

Never to share this life with the man I could love

But the past keeps punching me in my face

What happens next is all I keep thinking of

What if this time’s a charm?

Maybe I should take the risk

No, I made it this far alone

I’ll go farther on my own