I don't know what love is...

I don't know what love feels like.

I love my family and friends; I just never had THAT love.
I don't know it.

You know, THAT love you see people gush and blush about.
THAT love where you can't talk about him or her without trying to hide your smile.
Supposedly THAT love when you start to miss him or her yet it hadn't been 24 hours since you last saw them.

The one that makes your pulse race and your heart skip beats.
That sends a chill down your spin the moment your skin contacts.

All of that sappy stuff. I shudder even to think about it.

I doubt if I ever get the chance to experience it.

Frankly, I pretty much don't care to know what love is.

Scared of Being Lonely...

This keeps happening

It’s like a cycle

Keeps going round and round

Leading me back where I started

I meet someone

We’ll hang out a few times

Get to know him

I’ll like him…then start falling for him

But then comes the bomb

What I once thought just isn’t

Everything he says is just a flirt

Nothing was real

So I give up on ever finding love

Sometimes I don’t believe in it

My walls are put up

Until someone else comes my way

I get nervous

I get those feelings again

But this time I refuse

I refuse to fall again

This time I like him

But I’m only leaving it as that

Those walls I built I won’t take down

My pride, it’s protecting me

From hurt

From heartbreak

From tears

From this thing we call Love

Finally

This could be my chance

My heart is saying go for it

My mind says “Don’t even”

Sure, I’m scared of being lonely

Never to share this life with the man I could love

But the past keeps punching me in my face

What happens next is all I keep thinking of

What if this time’s a charm?

Maybe I should take the risk

No, I made it this far alone

I’ll go farther on my own