Happy Father's Day to this man...

He may not have been around for most of my life but he made the effort starting 6 years ago. All it matters is he’s there now. I didn’t forget about the past but I do forgive him and put it behind me. He is a great man. Although, he started over by getting married and having 2 more kids…my baby brother and sister (not pictured), he’s made some good changes. He stopped drinking, eased on the smoking and working hard to provide for his 2 babies because he didn’t want to repeat the same mistake he did to us. We are a big family. I love you, Dad.


*this picture is over a year old…I look ew*

I don't think I was wrong...

You came to town to visit your two best friends and celebrate your birthday. Called me 2 days after her 2 best friends had made plans to celebrate another visiting friend's birthday. We planned to work around those plans so we could hang out with our best friend.

But, lo and behold, the night before your party...after leaving the club, I decide to call you to see how far you are from town. You proceed to tell me you don't want our best friend at your party because she's acting "funny and fake". I'm in the car with our best friend. I'm in a bad position and can't say anything.

You've been getting jealous for nothing lately. You're mad because our best friend doesn't call you. Well, the phone works both ways. You have no problem calling me then asking what our friend is up to. You're mad because when you moved to another state, our friend and I became closer after you introduced us, and started hanging out a lot. You feel like we just said FUCK YOU like you didn't matter. It was never like that. Fact is, your name came up every time we hung out. We reminisce our crazy moments with you. We wonder if you were here, what crazy thing you'd say or do. Every single time. We love you.

I heard everything you were telling me that night. I couldn't respond while in the car with our friend. You let jealousy get the best of you. The night before your birthday party, you tell me: "You know what, y'all go have your fun. I don't need y'all at my party." Then hang up...in my face.

The day of your party, you call me. A total of 9 times the whole day. 2 voice mails. 5 text messages. I ignored all of it. You're asking if I'm still coming to your party. If our friend is still coming. You let me know that we were on the guest list. You acted like the night before never happened. And you want to know if I'm coming...

You know what? Hell to the no. You basically told me to kiss your ass. You acted like an immature high school child. I don't entertain that drama shit. So no, I didn't go to your party. I love you but, my dear, you need to grow up.

ATL Diaries: (re)Virginity...gone.

Yeah I been kind of busy. So much that I didn't get to tell y'all all about me finally getting some dick.

Yes...after a long (double digit) time period...(no need for you to know exactly how long)...I finally got some DACK!!! (no, I didn't misspell it. I meant DACK...that's DICK with over-excitement)

We did everything short of penetration. I'm kind of glad though because he was huge and thick, and I don't think I was ready to take something that big yet.

I deepthroated. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be considering I have a gag reflex but I can work on that. I was surprised when he let me do something I've never in my life thought I'd ever do: eat him out. I did pretty well if I say so myself. Hell, he LOVED it. And he let me tease his hole with my dick head. That felt so good I wanted to just start fucking him but I didn't. While I did that, at the same time, I saw his dick just laying there, so I started sucking it. I think maybe I can be good at this topping thing. New mission: become a VERS.

And when I say he worked his tongue on me...talk about OVERDRIVE!!!

I'm getting horny enough to start playing with myself just talking about it. I'm gonna leave y'all with that.

ATL Diaries: Last night fun...

Me and my bff Kena went out to celebrate one of her friend’s bday. We ate…drank…drank more…and drank more. And danced. 

I heard Trina’s new song Long Heels Red Bottoms for the first time and loved it. Probably cuz I was a little drunk. Just a lil.

What surprised me is as much as I LOATHE the flop trash known as Run The World, I actually went off. Shoulders, some choreography…the song is cool in a club atmosphere. Still trash.

Our other bff was en route to ATL for her bday and we were planning to hang out and party today but that’s all been scrapped. She decided to start acting stupid and childish, and showed her true colors. She basically told me to kiss her ass and we don’t  So me and Kena are going to do our own thing tonight. Ain’t got no time for the bullshit.

So tonight, me and Kena and her friend are going to the Uptown Comedy club and Echelon. We living life…drama free.

Sometimes I wonder if I'd be better off straight...

I’ve always had girls who wanted to date me but were disappointed to know that I’m gay. My whole life without dating or a relationship…I’ve liked so many guys but can’t seem to get one that likes me or wants to be with me.

But then again, I don’t think I’d be able to like the fish. I'll stick with the dicks.

Eventually...

I'm going to update this thing. I'm still alive and all. So much has been going on in life...even something unexpected but very much needed. You'll be surprised.

Stay tuned.