Stuck between a rock and a hard place...

So y’all know I’m from Houston. I’ve been here all my life, since I was born. For nearly the past 17 months, I haven’t had a job since being laid off. While searching, I remained focused on school full time. Hundreds of applications, and only 4 or 5 interviews later, I’m still not working. Well, thanks to a relative in ATL, I got a pretty good offer. So, it looks like I could be moving to Atlanta soon. Great, right? Well, not really. They want me to start ASAP but the only problem is I have a court appointment in 3 weeks that I can’t back out of. I really am looking forward to moving and it would be a nice change of scenery. However, it might not happen if I can’t get around this damn court thing.

L Boogie speaks!

Lauryn Hill is back — sort of.

Celebrated for her work with the Fugees and her classic solo album The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill, the Grammy-winning hip-hop/R&B artist has barely been seen or heard since 1999. (Despite universal accolades, she only released one album after 1998’s Miseducation: 2002’s MTV Unplugged.) Some wondered whether the erratic artist — who demands to be addressed as “Ms. Hill” — had a nervous breakdown.

But Hill, now 35, finally explained her mysterious absence to National Public Radio’s Zoe Chace, who scored a interview with the artist following a rare performance in Santa Rosa, Calif.

Why did she stop recording? “There were a number of different reasons,” she explains.

“But partly, the support system that I needed was not necessarily in place. There were things about myself, personal-growth things, that I had to go through in order to feel like it was worth it.”

The platinum-selling star also takes aim at the music industry, suggesting it didn’t nurture her with enough care or patience: “Oftentimes,” Hill says, “the machine can overlook the need to take care of the people who produce the sounds that have a lot to do with the health and well-being of society…And it’s important that people be given the time that they need to go through, to grow, so that the consciousness level of the general public is properly affected.”

Not that Hill hasn’t kept herself busy the past 11 years.

“I don’t know if you know this, but I have five children,” she tells NPR. Her children’s dad is Hill’s longtime love Rohan Marley, son of the late reggae legend Bob Marley. 

“The youngest is 2 now, so she’s old enough that I can leave her for a period of time and know she’s going to be okay.”

“I think it’s just time,” to start performing again, she adds.

“I’m starting to get excited again. Believe it or not, I think what people are attracted to about me, if anything, is my passion. People got exposed to my passion through music and song first…And I think that can be infectious.”

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Chris Brown's Michael Jackson Tribute

The best moment of the night. As you recall, BET refused to let Breezy perform in that mess of a tribute for the late great legend Michael Jackson. In a way, I'm kind of glad they did only because that show was a fuckin' mess. However, they redeemed themselves by allowing him to perform this year and Breezy's tribute alone single-handedly annihilated every MJ tribute done. When it came time for him to perform "Man in the Mirror", Chris could barely sing at all, breaking into tears, mourning the loss of his idol.

Now, of course, the haters decided to come out of the woodworks. I like to call them sinners casting the first stone, knowing damn well they shouldn't. Publicity stunt, he's an actor, still a womanbeater, "where were the tears when he beat Rihanna's ass?" All this ridiculous shit being said. Seriously? Come the fuck on! Nobody knows shit about his life and they don't understand what Michael meant to him. Chris was heavily influenced by MJ and idolized him since he was 3 frickin' years old. His whole career he owes to MJ. Chris was in his moment. He lost it. That moment, it suddenly hit him that his idol is now gone. Tell me those moments don't happen to you when you went to a funeral for somebody you loved. Yeah, I thought so.

Insecurity? Maybe...

I never think I’m “cute”, “fooiiiiiiiine” or “sexy”. Not even “attractive”. My friends all think I’m crazy because I actually believe I’m unattractive. Sometimes I go around saying I’m ugly, lol. But seriously, when I look in a mirror, I don’t see the cuteness or the sexy. I see a normal average joe that would get no attention…and I’m perfectly fine with that. There’s nothing wrong with being conceited; it’s just that being that way has never been for me. Some people are conceited even when they shouldn’t be. I know, that’s mean but it’s the truth. Anyway, whenever people tell me how good I look, I lowkey blush and like it even if I don’t agree. That’s just how it is.

What. The. Fuck.

I have an attitude problem...

I’ve always admitted that from the get-go. I have a short temper and when I lose it, I fuckin’ lose it. Some people are quick to learn that and stay on my good side but there are still some that cannot understand how I operate. It's like they need a fuckin' manuel in English, Espanol and Francios. They keep going and repeatedly pushing all my buttons then wonder why I’ve gone crazy. Stupid, isn’t it? When I give my answer to your questions the first time around, I’m not changing it…that’s it. Keep asking, by the third time, you’ll be looking at me like I’m a completely different species. It’s THAT easy to piss me off. Everybody have known me long enough to know this. But, there’s always that one or two that seems to be slow to comprehend then their left wondering or hurt.

Dear Anonymous...

I received an email notification of a comment on my post for "Homophobia":

Wonders will society ever except us for who we really are. Signed, the boy who was beaten because he wanted to play with dolls and dicks, instead of guns and tricks.

I wish you hadn't deleted your comment but I'm sure you did it for anonymity. I applaud you for writing that; it must have been scary and brave for you.

It is ridiculous the suffering people have to go through just to be who they really are.

**Commenter's name kept secret for anonymity**